Exiting into nowhere

scatteredvows — Fri, 18 Feb 2011 14:12:19 +0000

I think whenever i blog it means im unhappy. I don’t know what to think. I just wish to know what i am to you. Its so confusing. I want you to really love me. I don’t want to quarrel with you, make you unhappy, and so on and so forth. Why do you get angry with me everyday, or maybe once in two days? Am i such a irritating pest? I guess i really don’t like having a change of plans when i look forward to something. It happened in vivocity as well. I am happy being with you. I enjoy it to the very last bit. But whenever you give me the silent treatment or the feeling that you don’t care about me i always wonder, do you care about me? If i’m ever gone from your life would you miss me? Do i matter to you? Do i make you happy? Am i important to you? You have never verbalise anything to me. I never know how you feel about me. I probably have officially ask you so darn many times if you were willing to be my but you never were. Its past valentine’s day. I really wanted to make it a happy day today. But guess as usual whenever i want it to be happy, it turns out horribly sour. I hate this feeling.

scatteredvows — Thu, 30 Dec 2010 20:12:13 +0000

If you only understood how I feel about you, you know I would only want the best.

Many other plans to be made. I need a place to stay in Sydney without burning my savings. Such am expensive city to stay in.

scatteredvows — Fri, 24 Dec 2010 13:52:19 +0000

Merry Christmas to whoever still reads my blog!!! And may you get lots and lots of presents

scatteredvows — Fri, 24 Dec 2010 13:51:15 +0000

I don’t want to be just any other friend you have. I want to be special. I want to mean something to you. Because you just aren’t some friend of my. Because you are what makes me both happy and sad.

scatteredvows — Thu, 23 Dec 2010 12:06:26 +0000

The one thing I want most is just to hear that few phrases from you, that would honestly be the only thing I want from you all these while. Nothing that money could ever buy.

scatteredvows — Wed, 22 Dec 2010 15:49:58 +0000

just want to feel love and appreciated this holiday.

scatteredvows — Fri, 03 Dec 2010 10:42:56 +0000

There’s always this insecure feeling that i have. That i do not know is it a yes or is it a no. Sometimes it feels like it is my wish come true. Sometimes it just feels like i can lose you any moment. I need affirmation. I need to know i am wanted. But i don’t hear it. Sometimes i wish i can force it out of you. I do not know if im just thinking too much because theres the saying actions speak louder than words. But i guess words are just equally important. If you could only understand how much i’ve wanted to hear some words from you. I guess i’ll be over the moon.

And i’m leaving Singapore soon.

scatteredvows — Thu, 02 Dec 2010 16:10:38 +0000

I wish you could tell me how you actually feel about me.

scatteredvows — Wed, 17 Nov 2010 17:19:02 +0000

I do wish you understand how much I actually love you. And I’m not a player or a flirt, I mean what I say. I really want to make you happy and just never let you cry. I want to be the only one who makes you happy.

scatteredvows — Fri, 12 Nov 2010 15:28:50 +0000

Just wish that one day I can hear you say that you love me back. Sigh. Or at least feel the same way I feel